Anxiety instantly eased when the can clicked open.
-.-
After revision session I’m going to go home and have a white hot chocolate instead.
I swear it feels like it is healing my soul.
Okay, now shitting myself about my exam.
When I see people who are really tiny, I can’t help but think about the pain (emotional or physical) that they are in. I can’t help but think about how much pain any person may be and no one knows because they simply can’t see it.
My sister is a mental case.
and it’s all my fault.
Phew.
Today I am going to work: no problem.
This weekend the boy who teased me about my weight is working. It’s the first time I will have seen him since September: problem.
I am trying not to worry. His comments were made as banter and in jest because he thought it was okay to call me fat because I so obviously wasn’t.
In September I was roughly a stone heavier, in the summer I was a minimum of 5lbs heavier than I am now. Logically, I know I can’t possibly be fat but emotionally… My eating disorder is plaguing me with the reminder that I am currently 10/11lbs heavier than late January.
I’m glad I have my anxiety stone to hold. Please let it go smoothly, please don’t let him trigger me.
It seems to melt all my troubles away for a little while.
